Thursday, June 18, 2009

A huge blow to my already high-strung emotions

AAAAAAGGHHHH!!!!!! I just don't know how much more I can take! This pregnancy from the start was not planned and definitely a surprise! As time has progressed, I have, or still am trying to accept that this is real and ready or not, here comes number five. In order to be okay with how close she and Creed will be, I have to not think about it at all. I can't, or I start having anxiety!
So week 28 rolls around, and low and behold, what do I find out??? I not only failed the one hour glucose test, but failed two out of three of the three hour test also! This means I now have gestational diabetes and have to go to a diabetes clinic and who knows what else it means.
I can tell you what it means to me... fear! Fear of the unknown, fear of an overly big baby, fear of having to have a C section from a doctor that is all too "for" that! i don't know if getting a new doctor would make any difference or not at this point. Would a different doctor tell me different results? I just don't know anymore, and I'm scared! If any of you moms have dealt with this or can give me anything positive to look for, please don't hesitate!
sorry about the tone of this post, but at this point, all I can wonder is "will the tears never end?"!

7 comments:

Amber said...

Aw. Poor thing. Tough times. But congrats! I didn't know you were having a GIRL. How exciting!!!

As for gestational diabetes, I've had a few friends with it and they basically just had to be careful about what they ate and they had to test their glucose levels. But I don't think any of them ended up with a really big baby. Infact, my one cousin who had it, had a 6 pound 15 ounce baby. So I think if it's controlled, you'll be just fine. But I'm not an expert.

Good luck. I'll be thinking of you.

Toni said...

so sad my dear. I feel for ya. On a happier note, Brian and I are having our own little suprise bundle of joy! Well hopefully. I found out that I was pregnant about 4 days ago, mid swine flu. I have been so sick for over a week. I have been spotting a little, so we will see what happens, the swine flu may have just been too much for our little bean. We are thinking of you. You can always give Bri a call if you have any questions. He is a pretty reliable source :) Good luck and hang in there.

Chandler said...

Oh Carlie! I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. I don't know anything about gestational diabetes but I do know that c-sections are NOT the end of the world. I've had 3 now so I should know. Just think of the sweet little girl that will be joining your family. Heavenly Father knows what's best and knows what you can handle. It's not going to be easy....but life really isn't supposed to be just a cake walk. It'll take some adjusting here and there but everything will have been worth it in the end.

Tama said...

Sorry about your test results. Talk to Jeannie! She knows all about that. Fortunately I don't have a clue, but I will be here to help with whatever you need. Love ya!

Lacey Green said...

SUCKY!!! I was hoping that you would be fine with that long long long test! I feel terrible for you! Hang in there. I will help you with whatever you need. I love you hon!

Miranda said...

I always think a second opinion is a good idea so I say why not check with another Dr. I am so sorry about all that. Good Luck!

Your Hubby said...

Just remember that you have many other people that are here to help you through the hard times. Keep your head up, stay strong, and lean on others (mainly your hubby!) when you are having a tough time staying strong. You have so many friends and family that love you so much. I know that when you see our new little girl, you will say that all the struggles were worth it. Remember that I love you!