Thursday, December 17, 2009

Angels among us

"I believe there are angels among us, sent down to us from somewhere up above,
They come to you and me, in our darkest hour, to show us how to live, to teach us how to give,
To guide us with the light of love." (Alabama)

There are so many Christmas songs on right now about angels... and I just can't help but cry each time I hear one! No matter the meaning of the song, just hearing the word "angel" makes me think of my beautifu little Mia. I miss her so much and I wonder if my heart will ever truly heal. I know there are worse things than what I have gone through, but that doesn't make me miss her any less or love her any less either. I feel so blessed to have our own angel to watch over our family!

My good friend Jaymie wrote this beautiful poem for her baby boy when he passed away just a few hours after being born... I switched some wording to make it for my little girl...( and yes, that is Mia's hand holding her daddy's)

An Angel In My Hand

Some people sing of angels
But I held one in my hand,
She was pure and clean and touched my life
As only an angel can

I longed to keep her here with me
And though I loved her so,
I knew she didn’t belong here on earth
So I let my angel go.

Sometimes when my heart is still
And when I miss her most,
I think about the time I had,
To hold my angel close.

And I know that God must love me
And I know how blessed I am,
To not just sing of angels
But to have held one in my hand.

9 comments:

Amber said...

That was so touching. I feel for you Carlie and wish I could make it all better. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Lots of love to you and your family!!!

Cherie said...

Carlie -

I love you girl! So touching! (I'm bawling!)

I LOVE angels and started collecting them when my grandma was killed because I truly believe that she watches over my children and our family.

I know how hard Christmas can be when it reminds you of those you have lost. My grandma was murdered 8 years ago this coming Saturday and although life goes on and you make it through, the pain never goes away. But EVERY year at this time - it's just a lot harder than it should be. It steals some of the joy of Christmas away... but thank goodness we have the knowledge of eternal families!

Chandler said...

That was beautiful! Bless you and your family. What an amazing picture!

JANEAL said...

I'm sitting here bawling after reading that poem. I'm so sorry for the heartache you have and will go through. What a sweet picture!

Natalie said...

I love you Carlie and know how much pain you must feel. I didn't lose my baby but losing my Mom so suddenly has been such a void and you're right, it's a pain that feels like it will never go away.
Your posts bring me comfort so thank you dear Carlie.
xoxo

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Jaymie and Paxton said...

I'm there with ya girl. I was thinking about you over Christmas. I don't know how but it does get easier. I can't wait for Jacob to be sealed to us and have our WHOLE family in the temple (no doubt our Colin will be there too). Love yer guts. Hang in there, you have made it through a huge milestone.

LaRee said...

Oh Carlie, they are always and forever our Angels, and your heart won't ever really heal. I think thats a good thing though, keeps them close even thought they are far away from us! My mom lost her first baby and 55 years she still mournes her baby. Aren't we lucky we have the gospel!?! They are ours forever!!!! Love you guys, hang in there it does get easier!

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