Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Remembering Mia

This 4th of July holiday, we went to Idaho Falls to commemorate the one year mark of our family losing our beautiful little Mia on July 2. She was stillborn to us at 30 weeks. She was 2 lbs 11 oz. and 17 in. long.It is so hard to believe that a whole year has gone by. I still wonder how time went on when I wanted it to stand still forever, but it did, and our hearts are healing- slowly.
I want to share some of the poems that I have collected over the year that have brought cleansing tears and peace to me.

An Angel In My Hand
Some people sing of angels
But I held one in my hand,
She was pure and clean and touched my life
As only an angel can

I longed to keep her here with me
And though I loved her so,
I knew she didn’t belong here on earth
So I let my angel go.

Sometimes when my heart is still
And when I miss her most,
I think about the time I had,
To hold my angel close.

And I know that God must love me
And I know how blessed I am,
To not just sing of angels
But to have held one in my hand.

When God sends forth a tiny soul
To learn the ways of earth,
A Mother’s love is waiting here
We call this wonder birth.
When God calls home a little soul
And stills a fleeting breath,
A Father’s love is waiting there,
This too is birth, not death.

If tears could build a stairway
And memories a lane,
I would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say “Goodbye”,
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness
And secret tears still flow,
What it meant to love you-
No one will ever know.
But now I know you want me
To mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store.
Since you’ll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today-
A hollowed place within my heart
Is where you’ll always stay.

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too.
I think of you in silence, I often speak your name.
All I have are memories and a picture in a frame.
Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part.
God has you in his arms... I have you in my heart.

Here is a movie clip of our time with our precious angel. Feel free to watch it, but if you don't want too, don't feel like you have to.
We love you all and thanks for helping us through a rough year!


Tama said...

This was a BEAUTIFUL post! Thank you for sharing this and for being a wonderful friend to me!

Lacey Green said...

It turned out great, Carlie! You are an inspirational woman! Keep movin forward....together again!

Andrea said...

What beautiful photos! It is hard to believe that it has been a year for you. Hang in there. You will hold her again! Families Are Forever.

Jen said...

Always thinking of you guys. Beautiful poems.

casa chandler said...

Beautiful! You are so strong! What an inspiration!

Allisha said...

Thinking of you and your cute family Carlie. Thanks for sharing this post. I'll look forward to meeting her. With love. Lish

Jaymie Quigley said...

You have made it through so much. The first year is the hardest. Love you guys!

Groff Family said...

Thanks for sharing such intimate moements. You are such am amazing woman. Mia is just beautiful.

LaRee said...

Oh Carlie! Please know of our love for you guys and know that your aren't alone in your heartache! Our hearts never really heal but thank heaven for God's plan and our understanding of it!!

Jenn J. said...

That was a beautiful video. Your family is so wonderful and lucky to have each other. I think about you guys often. I'm glad you are able to move forward together. You will see that sweet, perfect little girl again. Thanks for sharing this!

Paula Vogt said...

I didn't realize you had a blog and this was the first time I saw your video. What a touching and beautiful tribute to a perfect spirit daughter who didn't need this earthly life except to get a body because of her righteousness. Your family will be eternally blessed by her and what a joyous moment it will be when you meet again on the other side.